Day 06 — Whatever tickles your fancy

Confidence.

I have a good number of friends and people that I admire because of this quality. I want to have more of it. I want to not care so much about what everyone else thinks of me, and just do what I do because I want to, and I love to, and it feels right. I'm inspired by the confidence, strength, faith, and utter joy that I see in other people in the way they live their lives.

This applies to some little things, like how I dress (I want to be more fashionable and stylish and be bolder in my look; not radical or anything, but I want to be able to wear something that I think is cute and not care so much whether my opinion is shared with anybody else)  or the way I act (sometimes I want to just go crazy and have fun even if I look like a fool. My sister is the one who has seen the goofiest, silliest, most retarded side of me, and that is because she is my little sister; I know she looks up to me and won't judge me. Even around my closest friends, I kind of limit my craziness because I'm self-conscious and I always try to make sure I look 'cute').

It also applies to bigger things, like my faith. I'm still trying to build up a strong relationship with Christ, but first I have to be sure on my basic core beliefs. My brain knows what I need to believe and what I need to do, but it hasn't quite reached my heart. I want to have the kind of faith that I see in some people around me. I want to see God in every aspect of my life, and I want to be able to share that joy with the whole world the way other people's faith inspires me.

Really, it just applies to my whole life in general. I want to be an independent, strong, confident woman. I've been learning a lot about myself and who I want to and am supposed to be, but I'm still heavily influenced by the people around me and their opinions. I want to just be me, and be confident in the way I live my life, my opinions, and pretty much just be sure of myself.