i personally think it's pretty insane that it's already 2008.
2007 was a big year for me, i think.
graduation, hitting the big one-eight, starting college, letting go of things that needed to be let go of.
i look back & feel like i've gone thru a lot, i've definitely had my share of drama that most likely could have been avoided. i'm glad that i've grown to be the person i am now, & i'm glad to know that i still have a lot of time ahead of me to fully figure out this person i want to be.
all this winter break i have surrounded myself with good friends, & it has been fantastic.
tonight, i'm going to heather's debut, her fancy smanshy 18th birthday party where i'll unfortunately find myself in the midst of some friends i've lost or drifted from and people i don't really know & would honestly rather not be with.
i've even sort of lost touch with the friends in cali since everything that's happened with john.
i really have not felt inclined to talk to him lately, it's just not fun because i know he still wants more than friendship, or there's something he's trying to find out in asking what's going on in my life. with any other friend, it's an honest enough question, but with him, it's like he's prying, & it's just not cool.
no, i'm most comfortable with my LC girls, specifically kirsten & jessica. samm & ash seem to be the next ones to drift away.. samm more so. *sigh* it happens, i know, but it's still sad nonetheless. i really hope that kirsten & i won't. jessica, too, but kirsten & i are closer. anyway, the four of us (minus samm, who's always working, unfortunately) have been hanging out with the church group all break, so i've been getting to know them & we're all becoming closer friends, too. i love it.
i'm making new friends, but they're not to sit in place of the old ones. they're making new spots of their own in my hearts, & the old spots of the friends who have drifted will always be there, rather sad, but oh well. life goes on.
here's to another year, hoping that all goes well for everyone.
2007 was a big year for me, i think.
graduation, hitting the big one-eight, starting college, letting go of things that needed to be let go of.
i look back & feel like i've gone thru a lot, i've definitely had my share of drama that most likely could have been avoided. i'm glad that i've grown to be the person i am now, & i'm glad to know that i still have a lot of time ahead of me to fully figure out this person i want to be.
all this winter break i have surrounded myself with good friends, & it has been fantastic.
tonight, i'm going to heather's debut, her fancy smanshy 18th birthday party where i'll unfortunately find myself in the midst of some friends i've lost or drifted from and people i don't really know & would honestly rather not be with.
i've even sort of lost touch with the friends in cali since everything that's happened with john.
i really have not felt inclined to talk to him lately, it's just not fun because i know he still wants more than friendship, or there's something he's trying to find out in asking what's going on in my life. with any other friend, it's an honest enough question, but with him, it's like he's prying, & it's just not cool.
no, i'm most comfortable with my LC girls, specifically kirsten & jessica. samm & ash seem to be the next ones to drift away.. samm more so. *sigh* it happens, i know, but it's still sad nonetheless. i really hope that kirsten & i won't. jessica, too, but kirsten & i are closer. anyway, the four of us (minus samm, who's always working, unfortunately) have been hanging out with the church group all break, so i've been getting to know them & we're all becoming closer friends, too. i love it.
i'm making new friends, but they're not to sit in place of the old ones. they're making new spots of their own in my hearts, & the old spots of the friends who have drifted will always be there, rather sad, but oh well. life goes on.
here's to another year, hoping that all goes well for everyone.
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